pyro

Wed, 14 May 2003 05:10:14 GMT

ok so im officially done, started another journal on a different site few minutes ago. this shall be my final entry, to my friends, if you care, ask me for the new address, and also, thanks for being there through the hard times. to the haters out there....kiss my ass.

GOODBYE.

Tue, 13 May 2003 12:16:02 GMT

In order to not cause/ or be associated with any of the fights that occure in this live journal, ive decided to drop it and switch back to my old journal site, if any of you would like that address, please IM me, if not..goodbye.

Sun, 11 May 2003 06:43:32 GMT

as of 9:55...ish this morning i will be 18 years old.

Thu, 08 May 2003 22:04:10 GMT

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category	Your Score	Average
Self-Lovin'	75% Never taken out of the packaging	61.4%
Shamelessness	90.5% Has yet to see self in mirror	76.8%
Sex Drive	92.1% The Pope is envious	74.9%
Straightness	42.9% Done the nasty, but not creatively	40.2%
Gayness	100%	79.5%
Fucking Sick	98.2% Refreshingly normal	87.9%
You are 81.33% pure Average Score: 69.5%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test and see how you match up!

Sun, 04 May 2003 16:18:29 GMT

so this weekend has been the best, in a long time, well most active weekend in a long time. Friday night was prom, i can honestly say that of the 3 i went to it was the best. i mean how could it not be with jimmy asking our waitress if he's a crackbaby or not. and of course the eating contest, damnit i shoulda gone for 9. post prom was great other than the seemingly minor concussion im pretty sure i got, damn you jimmy, ill get u back! and then chilled at heathers, well i fell asleep as soon as i found a couch so not really sure what happend there. Alysse's mom rules, she made us great breakfast when we finally woke up. and then last night was the Matchbox Twenty Concert, Maroon 5 and sugar ray performed prior to matchbox. That was one of the best concerts ive ever been to! cant wait for them to come back. i spent 30 of the last 48 hours with erin, and i still want more.

prom

Tue, 29 Apr 2003 03:58:19 GMT

so proms comin up on friday, and i actually find myself excited, even if it is my third prom, well this will be my first with a gf, and third times supposed to be the charm, or however that goes, so im thinkin ill have a great time, hopin, tellin myself that I WILL HAVE A GREAT TIME.

so much happens this month, i turn 18, ill be a legal adult, wont that be scary. and then my curfew disapears forever, just have to check in with the rents every now and then to let them know im still alive. and of course proms this month, and itll be erin and my 6 month anniversary on the eighth which is amazing, i never thought id be fortunate enough to be with her for such along time, course allot of things i never expected to happen in this relationship, or any, have happend. its been a truly great 6 months.

and then i graduate next month, and im pretty sure my rents are getting me a bomex body kit for my car, which will be tight as hell, $750 or so, and then i can start full time work and pay off my car and save up for other stuff. i cant wait for this summer because, i for one plan to make it a summer to remember seeing how its my last with allot of my friends. its gonna be a good one.

good day

Sat, 26 Apr 2003 05:30:50 GMT

great day today, woke up around 8, washed my car, went and got my paycheck, got some cash $$$, then went and picked erin up, i had been planning for tonight all week, hinting about it yet also keeping the secrecy. anyway...picked her up and then me and jimmy went and applied at Stay Tuned, in waukesha, id love to work there, its full time, and its all about cars, what more could i want, well that and my firefighting job at night. hope i get that so i can get the hell outta culvers. we'll see how that goes. and then erin and i chilled here, i finalized the plans for tonight in the middle. 530 came and it was time to start the night, randomly drove up and down a few roads convincing erin that i was just gonna take her on a random road trip drive tonight and we'd end up at my house. then i finally went to Hulahans where we at dinner, surpisingly inexspensive, and then we went and saw Identity, such a tight suspense flick id recomend it to anyone. came back here and watched We Were Soldiers, ive seen that movie soooo many times and yet never get sick of it, it should be one of those flicks that are required to be shown in history courses. i cant wait for the day that i dont have to take erin home, that we can just be together all night, i cant wait for the day where we take our relationship to the next level, that day is what i dream of at the moment.

Sun, 20 Apr 2003 14:28:20 GMT

one of the main things that gives me so much confidence now in my relationship with erin, is when i look around at other couples, i cant even find 1 that doesnt really fight constantly, there is always drama in the other relationships around me, with all the people that have soo much more "experience" with relationships. Where as i find myself over 5 months into my relationship with erin and we have hardley even disagreed on anything letalone fight. im suddenly like worry free when im near her, im not worried about losing her anytime soon because i have finally accepted that she does care for me, nearly as much as i care for her. LIFE IS GOOD. now if the rest of my friends could be happy, then life would be on the verge of perfection right now

5 months

Wed, 09 Apr 2003 03:56:39 GMT

so today is erin and my 5 month anniversary, 5 months weve been going out now, proved allot of people wrong over the months. but that doesnt really matter. in all honesty these past 5 months have truly been the happiest of my life, and for once im extremely optomistic of the future, i can only hope that there are many more anniversaries for erin and i, hopefully ill be able to celebrate yearly anniversaires and be this happy for years to come, i think i will be able to. its odd though thinking back to last summer, i woulda never pictured erin and i together, i guess what they say is true, opposites really do attract, for i could never have even imagined us together and yet here we are in a 5 month long relationship with me being happier than ever, strange.

april showers bring may flowers

Mon, 07 Apr 2003 12:00:41 GMT

isnt that what the old saying is? but dont they mean rain showers? were supposed to get 2-4 inches of snow today, i wish wisconsin would just pick a freakin climate, not this 60 one week 30 the next bullshit, dah well couple more months till ill be bitchin about how hot it is.

the other half

Sat, 05 Apr 2003 07:57:43 GMT

up until i left heathers my day was great, i went to school for 2 hours thanks to our half day, then went over to erin's cause she didnt have school, went out to eat with her and did a lil shopping, then came back to her house to help with her sis's bday party, i tell ya what there is no greater abstinence presentation than to show a guy/girl a 7 year olds birthday party which contains 8 screaming girls, i so dont wanna have kids anymore, well maybe 1, very calm and quiet one, after that was finally over, we met up with everyone for the play, it was aight, not one of pewaukee's best, but aight, after that, tried to come home but found parents here so went over to heathers, heather wanted to see jackass....again, so we try to go rent it, but at 10 oclock on a friday night of course there arent any copies left, so we call up dj cause she saw it with him the night before, and he was kind enough to let us invade his house and borrow it, thanks dj, damn i cant remember the last time i laughed so hard, and den i stole heathers car and took erin home, cause my car was blocked in, then came back and watched more tv and stuff, started to leave a lil after 1, found the stupid shit on my car, came home, and wrote that previous pissed off entry, which is now partially solved, well not really, just cancled one suspect, but anyway i gotta work at 9 so im going to bed, screw spell check to lazy.

fucking flamer

Sat, 05 Apr 2003 07:36:34 GMT

so yet again tonight my car got, vandalized, i am so sick of this petty fucking crap. tonight it was condoms, and lube spread over my windows, and queer ass lil pointless fliers under the windshield wipers. i thought this shit was over and done with, and the irony is, there is only 1 person that knew i was at heathers tonight, everyone else i was with tonight thought i had gone home, only one person knew i was at heathers, hmmmm but to avoid being wrong this time, i did not retaliate as quickly as i did the last time, but when i find out who did it, if its who i think did it, there gonna be a bit more than eggs thrown this time. i am just so fucking sick of this, people sit on here commenting in my journal about how immature i am and shit for some of the stuff they do, and then the same stupid fucks do this bullshit to my car, who's the immature one? i wish this pussy would just fess up and say who he is so we can end this the good ole way of throwing fists, doesnt that sound like more fun than causing monetary valued damage to other peoples properties, stupid stuck up brookfield people. granted not all brookfield peeps are stuck up, but im pissed, and fairly confident that the stupid fuck that did this to my car is a stuck up lil brookfield momma's boy. da well fuck em, not keepin the car that much longer anyway.

what if's

Sun, 30 Mar 2003 09:05:56 GMT

so i was laying around at heathers tonight with erin, and just started thinking about how much she means to me and all the good stuff, then i started posing the what if questions all the way from, what if i hadnt gone to that party at kelly's lake house down to what if i hadnt gone to fright fest, and all the others in between. i truly can not even begin to express the amount of joy and happiness she has brought into my life, compared to the dreary mess it used to be, as soon as i found her everything just seemed to click in my life like there was no problems anymore, and now sure i doubt her everynow and then but there really is no substance behind it, i realized tonight that i really am not even worried about our relationship for the next few years, up until erin wants to move to california with maren, that'll be heard but itll be the true test to see if we should spend our lives together i guess. the popular situation where only time will tell, ah well at least im happy now. i just idk never thought 1 girl could have such an impact on my life.

Wed, 26 Mar 2003 05:04:09 GMT

got a weird new feeling tonight, not a good one, not one that im used to like when i get depressed either, this was one of just complete emptiness, like something/someone was suddenly gone from me forever, leaving a hole inside of me, this feeling sux, and im going to bed now as a result

Tue, 25 Mar 2003 05:27:37 GMT

i just want all this to be over with so heather can be happy again

work

Tue, 25 Mar 2003 03:48:23 GMT

so yeah ive been back at culvers for idk 2 months and im already sick of it, im sick of stinking of burgers after work and being self concious of it and not wanting to see erin as a result. i was talkin to my dad today about where i should work once i turn 18, and in the future, and he brought up the idea of working at Bemis Plastics because of the fact that he's there allot and knows many people, and i like the sound of working there, he said that he could prolly get me and jimmy jobs which would pay $12-14 per hour, and we be working 40 hours a week, now thats hellsa cash and i wouldnt reak after i was done with a shift, the only down fall to this place is 65 miles away, so hour away from here, but would it be worth it to be making that much cash, and still be working with jimmy, and to be heald in high respect because of how much my dads helped there over the years, idk we'll see, he's going there tomorrow and checkin into it.

sleeeeeeeeep

Mon, 24 Mar 2003 04:03:14 GMT

this weekend was great, got to see erin every day, got to go see her new house today, its tight, a nice get away for the summer, and the nice part was, all 3 days i fell asleep with her, i love that i'm comfertable enough with her to let my guard completely down, to fall asleep and not worry about anything, to just lay near her and be completely content, is one of the greatest feelings i ever had, but then again that vast majority of those who read this journal don't think that erin and i can have deep feelings for eachother maybe even be in love, specially don't believe that she could love me, but they cant possibly understand for they are not us. so fuck em.

there our many of us in this country who are pro war/ ANTI ANTI WAR!

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/ap/20030324/ap_on_re_mi_ea/war_rallies&cid=540&ncid=1478

I AM ANTI ANTI WAR

Mon, 24 Mar 2003 02:25:33 GMT

damn all you anti war people who think iraq is so great and undeserving of this war just keep getting shot down. recently the iraqi television station Al Jezzeria (sp?) showed video footage of alleged American P.O.W's. footage depicting them being interviewed, some with bandages around wounds, the soldiers were visibly frightened as they attempted to answer the reporters questions,and the footage later showed several dead soldiers with head wounds appearing to be the fatal blow, this obviously would imply that the iraqi soldiers executed them, which granted is an assumption but thats the way it appears, now the Geneva Convention strictly outlines the procedures for conduct and treatment to be given to Prisoners of War, it states that they shall not be photographed or video taped in any humiliating way, and of course that they shall not be executed, so iraq just put themselves even further up shit creek without a paddle.

Fri, 21 Mar 2003 20:34:18 GMT

another point against all of you whom appose this war and think there is no validity in it. In the past two days Iraq has launched 5 S.C.U.D missles into kuwait, missles which it specifically told the U.N. that it did not have, these missles were banned in the agrements established by the U.N. years ago, agreements including the rule that Iraq may posses no missles with distance capabilities of distances greater than 95 miles, the SCUD missle has a range around 250 miles clearly violating the rules. thus further justifying our presence in Iraq because although its true that the U.N. inspectors did not find any substancial evidence of illegal weapons in Iraq's possestion, this latest devolpment involving SCUDS cant help but make you wonder what else they have hidden.

Thu, 20 Mar 2003 06:15:34 GMT

Found this while working on speach, somes up my thoughts that im not smart enough to put into words.

http://www.dinerminor.com/tnn/modules.php?op=modload&name=News&file=article&sid=722

War against Iraq is justifiable, necessary and ethical
Posted by: mhale on Monday, March 10, 2003 - 02:33 PM CST

The United Nations was founded on the ideal that war was an out-dated method of statesmanship. And it appears to be, for the most part.

Diplomatic solutions are better ways to resolve conflicts than sounding the bugle of war. Certainly, diplomatic means must be exhausted before war can ever be considered…and even then, the effects of that war must be judged against the possible benefits. Unfortunately, there are instances where war must be used in order to right a great wrong. Such is the case with Iraq.

Legally, the United States is more than justified in deposing the Hussein regime by military means. The people of Iraq would be better served by intervention than further sanctions. Iraq has been in material breach of Resolution 1441. It has failed to cooperate actively, has hidden materials and continues to manufacture weapons of mass destruction (WMD) even while the UN Inspectors are combing Iraq. Satellite imagery confirms this fact, as do accounts by various defectors who are hiding under penalty of death from Sadam Hussein. Tales of bio-weapons, horrific chemicals and even an early nuclear weapons program abound.

Not only has Iraq been producing VX nerve agent, anthrax, botulism toxin, ricin and other bugs for years, it has also failed to account for over 500 artillery shells filled with mustard gas from the Iranian War. Though having declared a token 50 liters to the UN, the remainder, or its fate, remains a mystery. Considering that several empty chemical warheads in immaculate condition were found by the Inspectors, the international presumption that Sadam has destroyed these materials may not be accurate.

The delivery of these weapons has not been shirked. Iraq has developed several Un-manned aerial vehicle (UAV) prototypes, designed to deliver chemical and biological weapons. The most famous one is a retrofitted Mig-21 with extra fuel tanks and four spray canisters. One thing is clear: It was not used for crop dusting. Additionally, it possesses missiles and artillery shells capable of sending a cloud of death onto any potential targets. An interesting recent development was Iraq’s statement that it would refuse to destroy missiles which well exceed the UN’s Maximum Range guideline of 91 NM.

It is obvious that Iraq is in material breach of UN resolutions, as well as the original cease-fire, which mandated that Iraq destroy all WMDs. The United States, as a party to the cease-fire, is more than legally justified in taking action and deposing Sadam once and for all.
However, let us furthermore consider the effect of leaving Sadam in power and continuing the diplomatic ‘solution’. More than a decade has passed since Sadam’s brutal attack of Kuwait. Many resolutions have passed, many inspectors dispatched and still Sadam possesses WMDs. It is clear that he has flaunted and ignored any resolutions passed by the UN. Only due to President Bush’s strong stance has Sadam agreed to this round of inspections. Without it, we’d still be wondering what was going on Iraq.

Let us also consider the evil this beast has caused within his own country. He has gassed his own population, destroying massive amounts of lives. He has wiped out thousands of villages, according to refugee accounts. His soldiers are guilty of rape, pillaging and torture on a barbaric scale. Accounts have surfaced of parents being forced to watch their children butchered. He allows his people to starve while he flourishes on the money he receives from smuggling oil through our ‘ally’, Russia.
There is no excuse for a civilized nation to ignore the plight of the Iraqi people. The UN’s history of stepping in too late or not at all is rife with this. The mass graves in Bosnia, the red rivers of Rwanda…the sands red with Kurdish and Shi’ite blood in Iraq? Only time will tell. But this is obvious: Britain has learned its lesson from Chamberlain’s mistake; appeasement is not an option. France, however, seems to be bent on repeating it. Are we going to stand by idly and watch innocents butchered, like the Jews in pre-WWII?

I hope not.

Thu, 20 Mar 2003 06:13:10 GMT

the other day in econ we had a discussion about the war, or then the "possible war" and someone brought up the point of what if he "saddam" uses biological weapons as a result of us attacking, WHAT IF WE DIDNT ATTACK AND HE USED THEM ANYWAY ON UNSUSPECTING PEOPLE WOULDNT YOU RATHER US GO IN THERE AND HAVE A CHANCE OF ELIMINATING THE THREAT RATHER THAN SITTING AROUND WONDERING WHEN HE'LL STRIKE?

STUPID PEOPLE

Thu, 20 Mar 2003 05:10:50 GMT

HOW CAN SO MANY, MAINLY DEMOCRATS APPOSE OUR PRESIDENT AT TIMES LIKE THESE, I SAY WE TAKE ALL YOU PANSY ASSED PROTESTERS OVER TO IRAQ, THROW YOU OUT IN THE DESERT WITH SOME FOOD SAYING YOU LIKE THEM SO MUCH GO LIVE WITH THEM AND HOPE WE DONT RUN YOUR PUNK ASS DOWN.

Thu, 20 Mar 2003 04:58:38 GMT

FUCKING DEMOCRATES! how can anyone appose this war, and or the war on terror after all the life that was taken on 9/11. its not like we didnt give iraq time to meet our demands, and its not like our demands were unreasonable, how can anyone say that our country sucks, that our president sucks. For those of you whom appose this war, or our country or our president KISS MY AMERICAN FIREFIGHTER ASS.

have u forgotten?

Tue, 18 Mar 2003 04:54:45 GMT

my thoughts to people that appose the war on terror and or/ iraq

hear people saying we don't need this war
I say there's some things worth fighting for
What about our freedom and this piece of ground?
We didn't get to keep 'em by backing down
They say we don't realize the mess we're getting in
Before you start preaching
Let me ask you this my friend

CHORUS 1
Have you forgotten how it felt that day
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown away?
Have you forgotten when those towers fell?
We had neighbors still inside
Going through a living hell
And you say we shouldn't worry 'bout Bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

They took all the footage off my T.V.
Said it's too disturbing for you and me
It'll just breed anger that's what the experts say
If it was up to me I'd show it every day
Some say this country's just out looking for a fight
After 9/11 man I'd have to say that's right

CHORUS 1
Have you forgotten how it felt that day
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown away?
Have you forgotten when those towers fell?
We had neighbors still inside
Going through a living hell
And we vowed to get the ones behind Bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

I've been there with the soldiers
Who've gone away to war
And you can bet that they remember
Just what they're fighting for

CHORUS 2
Have you forgotten all the people killed?
Yes, some went down like heroes in that Pennsylvania field
Have you forgotten about our Pentagon?
All the loved ones that we lost
And those left to carry on
Don't you tell me not to worry 'bout Bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

Have you forgotten?
Have you forgotten?

so lifes still pretty good, finally got prom drama fixed i think, and i finally figured out my finacial plan to manage to stay outta debt throught prom, i need to save around $190 out of my next 3 checks, which should be interesting, lets see i had 20 some hours last week and like 26 this week so thats like 46 hours on this paycheck X 7.50, so hopefully i can keep up my hours at work for the next 6 weeks, and then i should be aight.

I HATE SCHOOL! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT! i cant take much more of this, its such bullshit why do i have to be there, I NEED .5 CREDITS TO GRADUATE they should just let me go to econ and english and ditch the rest, how can they expect me to be motivated to go to my other 4 bullshit classes? its aight, 11 weeks to go, somethin like 55 days, 165 classes, 233.75 hours of school time, 14,025 minutes or 841,500 seconds in classrooms, piece o cake. im just sure my grades will slip and be low, but screw em ill still graduate

things with erin, are amazing, sometimes i wonder why she puts up with me, she's so amazing, im still stunned every time i see her, idk, i just never thought id feel like this, in highschool let alone in life, but i guess we'll just have to see how it goes, id like to prove everyone wrong and live my dream right now and be with her forever, but only time shall tell that

last night

Fri, 14 Mar 2003 19:07:26 GMT

lastn ight was pretty bad, i got really depressed as the night went on, for no reason really, allthough all this prom bullshit wasnt helping, and of course when i get depressed my mind finds ways to fuck with me, makes me question erin and stuff like that, which i hate to do and have no reason, after she went to bed saying that we would talk in the morning, i really started scaring myself, i felt the urge to call her and say goodbye, because last night i thought of suicide again, and i dont know why, i just had this insane desire to go upstairs and cut or burn myself or to go get in my car and top out as i veered into a ditch into a nice thick tree, and now that i look back on last night, it scares the shit outta me, cause i really have no reason to be depressed or to want to die, my mom wants me to start taking uhhh st. johns wart i think, cause she said that it can help with depression symptoms, erin wants me to go see a doctor about it, but neither of those are the way that i work, i deal with my shit, by myself.